Time moves on

Time does move on, but I still think about Kai constantly.  People always say that things will get better.  Certainly, I am not crying every minute of every day, but the pain in our hearts is still there.  Things aren’t better, we just are forced to think about other things.  I guess I just don’t like the saying “things will get better.”  Better would be my dog back in our lives for another 8 years with his health.

Kai seemed to be the heart of the pack.  Anna, our Siberian Husky and Elli, our female German Shepherd just seem so much more subdued.  The house is quieter.  Our ever alert boy is no longer here to get the masses riled up to protect our house from squirrels, dogs and bunnies.  He is no longer grabbing a toy to play with and bringing in the other dogs for a bit of a chase and tug of war.  It is strange that our cat, Jester, is the loudest animal in the house now.

We have had a few beautiful days with temperatures in the 60s.  The snowy icy mess outside is disappearing.  Spring will be here soon and while I am relieved, there is a sadness to it all as Kai loved to be outside sitting in the sun.  Each day I am outside walking with Elli or Anna I think to myself, “Kai would love today.”

The picture above is of Kai in April 2002 when he joined our family.  He was learning to use the stairs for the first time and needed to be coaxed a bit.


Every day is a challenge

It has been almost 12 weeks.  Three months.  I can’t even believe it.  There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about Kai.  I think initially there was the disbelief that at 8 years old he would be taken from us.  Now there is just the anguish that I will never see him again.  It may be hard for those that don’t have pets to understand how deep a loss like this is.  Imagine that a devoted friend that has been at your side for 8 1/2 years through all the happiness and disappointments is now gone. 

It is hard to forget his final moments.  Maybe some day I will tell you about them.

His birthday was on January 30th.

Goodbye my sweet boy!

Not going to type out a long post today because it is just too painful.  Kai passed away on Tuesday, November 16th.  He was at home with me so there is some comfort in him not dying alone.  He will be severely missed and I hope that someday I will have the privilege of seeing him again.

There will be more on this blog in time, but for now our family is grieving the loss of such a sweet and tender dog.

I’m not a poodle!

Been a good day today.  Kai is still concentrating on just the meat portion of his meals, but he is eating and I sneak in some bites of rice.  We are mixing his food with a variety of things to be sure he is getting proper nutrition.  Blackberries, raspberries, coconut oil, chlorella, garlic, parsley and ginger.  Some things he loves, others I try to trick him into eating.  Hiding a bit of parsley in a raspberry can be fun.

His fur is also growing back nicely.  The shaved armbands and naked belly have been replaced by some dense fur.  It reminds me of how a pug’s fur feels.  Now we can’t tease him for looking like a badly shaved poodle.

Today was sunny and warm so he spent a bit of time outside.  I wanted to have him out there more late this afternoon, but his neighborhood stalkers were out.  I know they mean well, but some days you just want to enjoy your dog and the great outdoors without interruption.  Going to try to get him out on the back patio for a few moments this evening.  It’s the little things that keep us all going.

One day at a time

We had another rough weekend.  Actually I think part of the weekend was good, but Sunday was miserable.  Kai spent the day with heavy breathing and not wanting to eat.  His drinking was immense.  He also would wobble and look like he was going to pass out any time he stood.  Although I try not to think about what may be going on inside, it does happen.  Every little thing makes you wonder – is he drinking more because he is bleeding inside and needs to make up for the blood loss?  Are his kidneys failing?  Is the bulge in his belly from blood accumulation or is he just laying a certain way?  It can drive you nuts!  I spent the day cooking to keep my mind off things.

Sunday night found us with little sleep and a lot of tension.  It is hard watching the one you love in such dire shape.  Add a terribly restless night and the nerves of the humans are shot.  Thankfully Mark still has some vacation time and was able to take the day off on Monday.  I slept for a few hours in the morning and felt better.  We caught up on laundry as most of our blankets were wet from Kai not being able to go outside.  I bought some vinyl sheets that day to save our beds and hopefully to make things a bit easier for everyone. 

Kai improved through the day and was eating mainly the meat from his diet by lunch.  For some reason he has been avoiding the rice in the food.  This past batch of food I didn’t mix together except for half the chicken and the rice.  If Kai continues to avoid the rice then we can use it for meals for humans and the other dogs.  We had slept a lot better last night although the time change has mucked things up a bit – Elli and Anna wanted to go out at 4:30am.  Bah!

Today Kai has been outside several times and has a healthy appetite.  It is important to try to get food in his belly along with the supplements he takes.  We continue to hope and pray he is fighting the cancer inside and these dips in energy and health are him just recovering from the fight.


“K-9 Immunity has been used in over 10,000 canine cancer patients to date (Dec 2006) and the manufacturer’s observations have been overwhelmingly positive in regards to clinical outcome. While cancer is one of the most serious of all diseases for the medical and veterinary profession to face, clinical observation shows that most patients experience a greater Quality Of Life, longer remission status and overall greater effective response to other therapies when using K-9 Immunity compared to patients not receiving it.”

We have been ordering K9 Immunity Plus from Aloha Medicinals as they make the product, but I found it today at K9 Medicinals for the same price with free shipping!  The product contains organic medicinal mushrooms and is made in the USA.  K9 Immunity Plus and K9 Immunity both are used as an immune system enhancment for dogs facing serious health challenges.  “The stronger your dog’s immune system, the quicker he or she will snap back from a serious illness like cancer.”   There is a FAQ for the product here – http://www.k9medicinals.com/faq.html  It can be used for dogs with illness, but healthy dogs benefit as well.  Never fear there are human formulas too!

Kai has been on this since the second or third day he came home.  Weeks 1-4ish certainly saw a huge improvement from his initial state before surgery.  He went from being lethargic and uninterested in food to gobbling meals, dragging us with his leash on walks and being upbeat. 

Week 4-5 he seems to have something new going on.  He will spend a few days energetic and on the move and then he will have several days of not wanting to move much aside from going outside to go potty.  His appetite has generally been good during these times so he is able to eat his special diet and supplements, but it can take some urging at times.  We hope he is just exerting energy for a few days and then needs a few days to recover from the energy burst.  We have read that those without a spleen tend to have times where their energy plummets.  We pray that he is fighting the cancer and will continue to improve.

Budwig Protocol

Cottage cheese and flaxseed oil can help cancer patients?  You’re probably thinking I have gone off the deep-end and completely lost my mind.  Although I have had some serious lack of sleep lately, I assure you my mind is fully functional.  I even have the images to prove it.  :P

“The basis of Dr. Budwig’s diet or protocol is the ingestion of a special oil-protein mixture in the form of organic cold-pressed flaxseed oil plus cottage cheese or “quark” (a dairy product readily available in German-speaking countries made from various types of milk and roughly similar to cottage cheese), to balance an oversupply of omega 6 fatty acids and hydrogenated fats in the Western diet and to provide an immediately available abundant supply of essential omega 3 acids.”

Essentially combining the flaxseed oil with a protein such as cottage cheese allows the unsaturated fatty acids to become water soluble.  This is good for a dog like Kai, because it doesn’t require the liver to do the work of breaking it down.

If you think Dr. Budwig may be a quack, she truly had knowledge about the benefits of flaxseed well before our time.  Consider this info on WebMD on the benefits of flaxseed in relationship to cancer:

“Recent studies have suggested that flaxseed may have a protective effect against cancer, particularly breast cancer, prostate cancer, and colon cancer. At least two of the components in flaxseed seem to contribute, says Kelley C. Fitzpatrick, M.Sc., director of health and nutrition with the Flax Council of Canada.

In animal studies, the plant omega-3 fatty acid found in flaxseed, called ALA, inhibited tumor incidence and growth.

Further, the lignans in flaxseed may provide some protection against cancers that are sensitive to hormones. Some studies have suggested that exposure to lignans during adolescence helps reduce the risk of breast cancer, Thompson says.

Lignans may help protect against cancer by:

  • Blocking enzymes that are involved in hormone metabolism.
  • Interfering with the growth and spread of tumor cells.

Some of the other components in flaxseed also have antioxidant properties, which may contribute to protection against cancer and heart disease.”

While we are not following the entire Budwig Protocol with Kai, there are benefits for dogs and cats.  Rather than paste all the info in, you can read it here – http://www.healingcancernaturally.com/pet-cancer-cure-testimonials.html  Not all animals may benefit from it, but we feel Kai is doing well with his daily mixture of 4T cottage cheese and 2T flaxseed oil.  Not only does he love it, but it provides him with the benefits of the nutrition found in both foods.  He comes running when he hears the blender!  This is certainly worth at least looking into if you know anyone with cancer.

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