Looking back

It has been a sad few weeks.  Our sorrow for Kai continues – added to this several animal friends of ours have died.  Hearing of the losses of such beloved pets brings forth all the pain I experienced in losing Kai.  I am so sad for the families that no longer have their dog or cat.  I am thinking of you and praying.

In looking back over things, I can honestly say I made the right decision in not going back to school this past August.  Nothing could have prepared us or indicated to us that Kai was going to be so sick, but in hindsight something really pushed me not to go back to school.  I can only imagine how things may have been had I gone back.  The stresses of classes which could not be missed, the financial burden and having to leave our precious boy alone on the days when he felt so sick are things I did not have to worry about.  I may not have been there when he needed me and he may have died alone.  I am thankful I was there.

Thinking now of the vet tech classes and then ultimately working in a veterinary clinic, leaves me with feelings of despair.  I do not think each day I could go to work knowing a sick animal may come in and possibly die on my watch.  Add to this the thought that in some way an error on my part may cause an animal unneeded pain or injury, I am just not capable at this point in my life in handling those stressors nor do I have the desire to be around that misery.  I understand each day is not filled with sadness.  There are joyful times, but it just isn’t for me.


2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Karen Hamilton
    Mar 03, 2011 @ 13:44:02

    Sorry if I made you sad Susan I should have realized how fresh your pain is still. I would like to thank you for the support you gave me during Gilda’s short battle with cancer. My heart aches as yours does for Kai and I am thankful I have Daisy (my other dog) left to comfort me though this time of mourning. I want you to know that you helped me through a very rough period and I will remember your support and compassion as I look back in the future when the pain is not so fresh. You are doing a wonderful thing by keeping up this thread and I am indebted to you …even if you don’t realize it you are making a difference. God bless you Susan………


  2. Mark
    Mar 09, 2011 @ 23:51:33

    Just want you to know that I keep up on this site. I am glad you do. It comforts me knowing that Kai is a click away. Thank you.
    He was and will always be a great friend and companion. I never want to forget him. He really was like a son to me; a four-legged, furry, lovable boy.


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